First let me start by saying HAPPY birthday to you. I have said happy birthday many times but
this time I mean it, I wish you the happiest
day ever. You won’t remember but I used
to write you happy birthday and just general letters on my old blog. Mom will read it to you sometime. This time is cooler though because you get to
read and really understand.
Twelve! You were
right Becks, 12 is indeed a big birthday, technically the last year of being a
tweenie before you hit the teens. I know
this is all about YOU but can I just say I know I must be pretty awesome
because God needed someone very special to raise someone like you. I love that I know just how to love
you. What makes you tick and what makes
you happy. You are different Rebeka and
you always will be. Sometimes this will
be a huge blessing and sometimes it will be a source of pain. You see and feel things on a much deeper
level than most people. I have this too
and when we live in a world that seems so incredibly unfair it can cause much
heartache. The good thing is that you
will never be that person who turns a blind eye or decides not to care. You do care and have the gift of fairness, compassion
and kindness and God will use you in your life to love and care and heal. I am not sure in which profession but I do know
it will be in a space and place where you get to show your love and care for
people or animals.
I am so immensely proud of you. Not for your grades or swimming or anything
you have done or not done. I am just
proud of WHO you are and to be your mother, the person who gets to guide you
and help shape you as you grow up. I
don’t know everything, no one does.
People will try and force their own ideas and opinions on you but you
need to find your own truth and belief system which has already started to grow. People call it their inner voice or the
little voice in their head or their conscience, that what niggles and tells us
stuff. We call it the holy spirit, the
voice of God that tells us what to do, when to love, who to love. You have this already, have had it for a long
time. Sometimes we don’t want to listen;
we so want to do what WE want to do. That’s
OK too because it is how we learn, we bump our heads and next time we learn to
duck or take another route. We also
learn to listen next time. (Mom has only
learned to listen to this voice so much later than you!)
I am glad you had a great evening at youth last night and
Auntie Michelle and your friends made you feel special. Super glad you love your prezzies and your
breakfast with Dad this morning. I know
it felt like forever waiting for your phone but this amazing and excited
feeling you have right now, it’s what comes from waiting for something you
really look forward to. Delicious
anticipation and then the moment of having it in your hands! Hey, sounds like my pregnancy with you. Waiting, waiting and then my arms and heart
full of you.
So let me end by saying happy birthday Rebeka Scarlett
Novitzkas. I wish you another 80 special
birthdays on this earth, even more. I
love you more than I could possibly describe but I know you know. Stoked for the wonderful plans and future I
know God has laid out for you.
Love from Mom x
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