The other semi bonus is when I become Morbid Maude, I start to imagine the what ifs and the shitty sad stuff makes me savour every second of this past week. In the past I have either been working, mothering babies or studying so having this past week and a bit off has been awesome. I am not a big shopper or gym bunny or coffee shop girl. I am very much an outdoor girl though so have had a week of my fave triple combo: good friends, natural outdoorsy beauty and endorphin inducing exercise. Monday was an 8km beach walk with my friends Claire & Bee and my dog aka The Goose. Then Claire took Goose home and I had a surf with my ol' surf chick friends who I haven't seen in far too long. Very little waves are taken but much time is spent sitting on our boards talking sh*t and smiling at each other because we are all so damn happy to be out in the ocean. Tuesday was a 10km walk with Bee in Lourensford which is just so gorgeous. Wednesday was another 8km walk with Claire followed by 2 hours of tennis with Colleen and Michelle. Thursday we did a 5.30am walk and then I was off to my pilates before our bunk day. The bunk day was spent with my 2 Bfs going to Boulders to see the penguins and have lunch and swim in the sea. We saw 1 sad penguin, got ambushed by a class of 10 year olds on their school field trip and then battled the tourists to find space in a restaurant for lunch. It took hours to get there due to the winds and a road being closed but somehow with all the oddities the day was divine and we plan to do it more often.
Friday was a rest day and emergency fix my pedi day. One's toes need to look beautiful when undergoing any kind of surgery! Saturday was just Goose and I and we did 10km down at the beach. Strand beach is filled with weird and wonderful people and I loved watching everyone and felt so damn happy to be alive. I asked God for another 40, not that heaven isn't wonderful or anything but I love life. I love feeling vital and
Sunday day was chilling and then back down to the tennis court to play with Colleen and Glenda for over 2 hours. I cannot believe we stopped playing tennis for so many years. I LOVE it and the fact that I am pretty suck does not dampen my enthusiasm. We laugh and yell and vloek and sweat and its like a mini holiday. I have to admit my back is really sore today so possibly overdoing it somewhat.?! I did do a short hours walk with Bee and Claire this morning so now I think my body is ready.
I appreciate all the prayers and good wishes and energy sent my way. I love the love. The fear of dying did lessen when my dad told me HE prayed. He said his last prayer was for Tertia to have a child and she got a whole heap of extra critters so he reckons he is good at this praying thing. With requests coming once a decade I figure God would be pretty willing to answer such an undemanding man. Another 40 years please Jesus. I appreciate my life, I squeeze out every last drop, I try and live my life with excellence and do it the best way I know how. I LOVE my kids and Gary. I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE my children more than I could ever express and I need to be here to raise them. I hope to write in a few days all better and my mouth no longer painful but back to normal. I want the end of 2012 now and I want healing and a fresh start without pain and discomfort. I want to fly, I want to live, I want to thrive, I want to grow and I am grateful for the gift of my life.
PS: I will get Gary to post on FB tomorrow post op and tell you all how well it went.